I’ve been off of this blog and social media for a few days now, only posting occasionally. At first I felt guilty for neglecting this space, but I just had so much on my plate…
Only after a few days did I realize how out of wack my schedule and priorities have been. We have Grandma and Grandpa visit, sickness to fight off, anxiety attacks to manage, doctors appointments to keep, and a trip to plan and pack for all on top of our normal schedule- there was no way I could continue to do EVERYTHING.
My milk supply was dropping and my anxiety was spiking. I was feeling run down, tired, overwhelmed and it was bringing to take a physical toll on my body. I had to choose to take a step back and let a few things drop for a bit.
Sometimes as mothers we have to chose to let things go. It’s difficult to do this. We feel like failures. But if I am honest with myself I would rather thrive at a few things instead of feeing like I’m drowning in all my responsibilities. I was to be a successful mom and wife that my husband and children can be proud of- but more than success I want to bring joy to their lives. And joy is not found in juggling one million circus acts, it’s in a cuddle and a movie or a bowl of ice cream while baby naps.
We leaving for a cruise. I won’t have any work, school assignments, or interment connection for a whole week. Just me, my husband, and my little man- so basically my whole world. I use to stress about pre-writing posts so that they would be ready to go live in my absence, but that’s not my reality. My reality is that I am going to be unplugged from pall of this and living in each minute with my beautiful family.
We all fall into wanting to show our best sevens or act like super mom- I am not. I’ve been dropping the ball on this blog and social media so I can start showing up for me and my family and that is ok.
Did not worry about being the kind of mom we see in the media. Don’t try and do everything. Just be the mom you babies need. Be the wife your husband needs. Be the you that YOU need and have faith that the pieces will fall into place.
I can’t wait for my week of being unplugged- consider taking some time this week to disconnect and plug into to something real that’s happening right in front of you.